Monday, July 27, 2009

Where in the world?

Sunday Scribblings asks us....
Where in the World? Have you ever stood still and scratched your head and said, 'Where in the world?' Is there somewhere in the world you would love to go? Are you looking for someone or something or a place that makes sense to you? Where in the world are you?

Sometimes if I stop and think too long about Where in the world I am or where in the world I am going.. I think I may just cry.
Sometimes my world seems like an escalator to nowhere, an escalator that keeps taking me back and forth through life's daily necessities and routines. My escalator stops often for the needs of others. Weekly it leads me to Costco and the grocery store and back down to home again. Then It's up again...off to purchase beauty supplies for work, take my son to a dr.'s appointment, take my dogs to the vet. Pick up someone's prescription, drop off the dry cleaning, Pick it up next week.... Don't misunderstand... very often this escalator leads me to Happy Lucy days. A zumba class, A day at the beach, an afternoon with a friend, an evening at the theater. But really, even with a break in the routine, even with enjoying the happy times and frequent laughter that occurs within the ho hum routines... Where in the world am I going?? Is this all there should be to ones life? A series of routine chores and work sprinkled with bits of enjoyment?
In 3 weeks I will turn 50. I am feeling like there has to be more for me. More to me. I have so many ideas that I wanted to cultivate, Yet I never seem to have the time for them. I am feeling so happy and so alive and having SO much fun when I am dancing at my zumba class, that I've actually toyed with the idea of training to be an instructor, yet I think of my age and say... get real Lucy! My husband thinks it's not foolish, he wants me to just 'go for it' (maybe he has watched Rocky one to many times) Or, Maybe I should just go for it? Go for something. something fun. Reach for anything exciting. As I get older, I keep hearing Cyndi Lauper's words and repeating them as my mantra.. 'girls just want to have fun'.. and I DO! I really want to just have fun!
Sometimes, asking where in the world you are can make you cry but sometimes it can also make you try. Trying to imagine where you may be going may just help get you there.

12 comments:

Gill said...

Lucy I understand exactly what you are saying! I think milestone birthdays always make us stop and take stock of our lives and it's then that we realise how bogged down we are in the humdrum, ordinary, day-to-day kind of stuff. I went through this exact same thing when I turned 40 last year.

I had great intentions of making all sorts of changes in my life, but unfortunately I have let it slide. Don't make the same mistake if you can help it!

Giggles said...

Lucy Teach dance if you love it! My friend Barb is going to be a fitness instructor at 51....she has worked hard for this secondary kick at the can.Not quite finished her training she has offers that encouraged her to complete it!

As long as it doesn't sabotage what you truly want to do!! When you have wonderful reasons to get up in the morning you live longer!! So do the zumba, the rumba, the bumba!! Just get your groove on girlfriend!!! You're just starting to find yourself!!
Being older is a whole new world of self discovery! One thing I know for sure, I don't know much!!!haha
Have a great day!
Love Sherrie from afar..but close at heart!

Tumblewords: said...

Go for it! There's nothing worse than looking back and saying, 'If only I'd...' There are hundreds of things to love about life - each one special!

Queen-Size funny bone said...

yup what giggles said...

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George S Batty said...

Old Grizz's grand pappy said "the only things most folks are sorry for when they check out of life are the things they did not try." Go for it
If I ever get to Long Island again, I'll join your class.

Anonymous said...

Anna said:

Step together 1 2 3 and go for it.

linda may said...

I know what that feels like, thinking about the would haves, could haves, should haves. We are the same age and I reckon we get stronger as we get older Lucy. So just do it. Step up and enjoy what you do. If you are at teaching level you must have some very good skills there Lucy.

Forgetfulone said...

Do what makes you happy if you can! Instructing, if that's what you want to do. Or whatever the case may be. I would love to get out of teaching, but I have no other marketable skill. I'd love to be an organizer, a store owner, lots of things. Risky, though. You've given me lots to think about. Now, go have fun!

Bone said...

A lot of ideas sounded foolish the first time someone mentioned them. And there are always a thousand reasons not to do something.

I hope you'll go for it, Miss Lucy. Take some time and do something for yourself once in awhile.

Oh, and coincidentally, I stayed up until 3 AM watching Rocky the other night. So, I think it's a sign :)

Bone said...

Oh, and don't forget the inspiring story of Kramer and karate. Within a few weeks, he was dominating the dojo!

Lucy said...

haha Thanks Bone! thanks everyone for the encouragement! because of your encouragement... I've signed Up for the workshop! I am zumba-ing my way to some fun!
:))