blue yellow

Lately, I haven't been blogging as regularly. I don't really know how I ever had the inspiration and energy to share my small little goings on with whomever would visit. I don't know why I have lost my blogging spirit. But I do know that Right now I feel like I've lost my spirit in general. I know it will blow away, it always does. Then, unfortunately it comes floating back again.. I call it a 'funk' when it visits. It's like a giant cloud that hovers over me making me feel the smallest task is just so overwhelming. My usually bright yellow aura changes to moody blue. I wish there was a way to chase this funky cloud away instead of waiting for it dissipate whenever it feels It's good and ready.
I miss reading all my favorite blogs. I miss participating in all my favorite prompt blogs. Hoping this heads or tails will help lift my blog funk and then maybe this other funk will float along for the ride.

killing time in the blue shadows

Feeling a bit down these days. The true colours thurs. color couldn't have fit any better into my current mood. And you say Next week is brown?? Holy Shit! That doesn't bring me much hope for the return of a sunny spirit.

Horizon

Day is visited by darkness, didn't notice it arrive
My vibrant colors are squashed into wistful faded blues
my heart is weighted weary by its disillusioned mood
darkness stifles joy, inhibits me from feeling alive
I Drift into slumber, hoping it alters the mood I will arise in
Eyes shut tight shadows the darkness of day, breath whispers rhythmic weeping
I dream of euphoric colors dancing inside me again, as I lay sleeping
Awakened, quietly aware my bright colors may return...over tomorrows new horizon

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back and forth

I haven't posted in a while. Not much visiting of blogs either. Life is feeling too crazy, too busy, too much. Where are the hours in a day going? This week my youngest went back to school. Last week my oldest moved back home. My middle son is working back to back between college and his job. My husband is back to being frustrated by our bubbly hot tub.
(Look what happens when you listen to the "pros" or should I say scumballs at Leslies pool store)



I wish I was back on my Aug. Vacation, my lazy back against my lounge chair, my nosed pressed into my book.( I am really enjoying Khaled Hosseini's new book, "A thousand splendid suns". Have you read his first novel "The Kite runner"? If not, trust me get over to your library or book store and sit back and get ready for one of the most beautiful stories ever written.)
Anyway, I don't know why I am feeling so overwhelmed and a bit depressed. Considering what life has dished out through the years, things are really going well right now. I keep trying to focus on all the positives, all the happiness. Thank god, there are many to focus on.
When I think back through the years, I realize the beginning of each school year has always made me blue.
Many feelings come into play. School signifies the end of summer and its ease and carelessness, its beautiful sunny days. It signifies that the long winter and its confinement is on its way. It means we go back to the routine of getting up early ( 6 am) and conking out earlier. The weeks fly by even faster. I always miss my son. The holidays which bring more cleaning, shopping and preparing are creeping up. Geeez, If you were feeling good when you started reading this, I apologize, 'cause you must be feeling pretty shitty right about now.
I think I need to get back to my exercise routine. Those endorphins could be really useful right now. I also, need to get back to eating right. I haven't been counting points, calories or how many cookies I consume for lunch. Yesterday, lunch consisted of 5 dunkin munchkins, 2 giant oatmeal cookies, a spoonful of peanut butter and a cup of tea. Dinner was 3 slices of pizza. Gee, if we really ARE what we eat, no wonder I feel like crap. It is so hard to get back into the habit of eating healthy, but NEXT WEEK I plan on giving it my best shot.
(You can't start dieting on a thursday after all, I think that may be an actual deadly sin)