15 hours ago
Monday, November 17, 2008
feelin' a bit wacky!
I am feeling Like I am in a constant state of being 'unsettled' Don't ask me to explain, as I don't even know what that means. It's like I am anxiously awaiting a monumental change to take place.
I guess we could guess that change is,well.. THE change! I am about that age! My poor husband wakes each day and doesn't know WHICH wife he should expect will greet him. Snapping one minute, and crying the next. Laughing at his usual antics or getting totally annoyed by them. Needing to be held followed by needing to be left totally alone! (I know what u must be wondering and..No! I've haven't been diagnosed with a mental illness! YeT!) I've never been one to turn to drugs even for a headache, but let me tell you I am thinking about taking SOmEthiNG right about now! My adult kids have been telling/teasing me for years.... "Mom, you need pot more than anyone we know!" To which I usually snippily respond.. What the hell does that mean?! Could it be, my kids are more insightful than I give them credit? Where does one even get pot?(unfortunately, I bet my kids know the answer) Can u imagine? Me on drugs? with my indigenous paranoia, I will be scared to death it's tainted pot! I better invest in a Much TALLER wine glass. That's about all i think I can handle.
I know you have nothing that you can say that can help me.. but gee.. any words of wisdom or support would be so appreciated ( well, just know, right NOW they would be but by the time I read them they MAY piss me off)