Okay... It must be cyclical with me...
I again need to rant about things that have pissed me off this week!
The first thing, that I was hesitant to write about( sparing feelings crap) but feeling crazed tonight, I thought... What the Fuck!( If you don't like this expletive, leave now.. Im sure I will be re-using it because it's my favorite fucking expletive..)
People touching my stuff! My adult son had a few buddies over. They decided to go on my computer to look at.. who knows what!
I came home an hour later, no one is home. I go to use MY computer( key-fucking word MY) and MOST of my BOOKMARKS are deleted!! Yes.. just think about this one moment for my sake please... Imagine how YOU would feel... pretty enraged, NO?? YES I was beyond LIVID. At first I just couldn't understand... WHY?? why would ANYONE just delete something of someone else's?? I've been bookmarking on this computer for 4 years! So I call my son who asks his friend who used the computer and the friend said "OH did I? I was trying to delete the history of what we were looking at". (wonder what that was??) I can't even get into all I felt and what I said. BUT, even enraged, I am such a mush that when they came back and He looked so upset and felt SO awful, and he IS usually such a nice guy... I had to forgive him, even though It took 2 glasses of vino to calm down. All week, I've been so frustrated.. need to quickly go to library web site...OH NOT there! school district website... OH NOT there... All the blogs I visit... .. gone!
Some frequently visited blogs are on my google reader, but the ones I don't visit as often... Who the hell remembers their addresses?
I can't remember my own these days! I am always typing the wrong password into blogger! Even writing this has stirred up the hot temper in me that I felt last week. What really angered me further, was when my son (ring leader) said... What's the big deal really?? I mean so just type things in when you need them and bookmark them again. HE almost lost his head. He should thank god I had already had the wine.
My second rant involves what else... GAS As I am getting a fill up yesterday..(full serve at hess is self serve price)- I notice in my side-view mirror, a customer running towards my gas tank. Apparently when you have a pocket of air in there, the gas doesn't automatically stop... It just OVERFLOWS and POURS out of the tank! This nice guy saw it and ran to stop it, the two foreign speaking attendants didn't. When they came over and my pump said 59.25. These two generous souls said ... No worry Lady... No give us 25 cent. I said to them ARE YOU kidding me?? 25 cents? There has to be at least 2 gallons on the ground. "No, no, it not much." Then another attendant appeared explaining my tank had air and Blah Blah Blah. Like that's my fucking problem? Am I suppose to burp the tank each week? Even at 4.25 a gallon, It just wasn't worth my time to try and speak Pakistani and communicate my outrage about their unjust customer relations.
rant #3.. ARe you actually still with me? You are a kind soul.
The other day, some moron in my salon went on and on about how much she can't stand it, when she sees someone nursing their baby in public. I just don't get people like this... Especially a woman! My god, she had breasts.. what Does she think they were put there for?? besides that...
It was very hard to maintain professionalism, while cutting her hair straight, AND try to give her a (former) nursing mothers point of view. Then just this morning, I am reading one of those Dear whoever advice columns in my newspaper.... And some Asshole mother-in-law, is complaining about her daughter in-law nursing in front of company. She wants her to stay in a bedroom during parties and family events till she's done nursing.( this sometimes takes an hour, you know?) I keep fearing I have Alzheimer's, so please tell me.. Where are we living? What kind of society frowns on the simplistic beauty of a mother nurturing her baby, the way nature intended?
All this bullshit, brought back to mind similar scenes when I was a nursing mother. Once while visiting close friends, His very uptight mother popped in unexpectedly. I was sitting at their kitchen table very discreetly nursing my son. She came in all happy to see us and made small chit/chat and then she realized what I was doing.. as quick as my bookmarks deleted.... She got all weird and embarrassed and said she had to leave!! She LEFT her son's home because an unrestrained Breast was in the room!! How fucked up is that? My poor friend felt awful, and tried to apologize for her oddness. One of my all time favorite anti-breast feeding statements? My sisters friend, who said... "yeah, if he was a girl I would have nursed him, But you know , he is a boy"
It's been like 25 years since I heard that line, but I still don't know what the fuck she was talking about! I guess she is thinking of it as something sexual? And she would only do something sexual with... Her daughter??
If anyone understands this .. Please enlighten me.
I DO think it's nice to be considerate when near people feeling uncomfortable in the presence of the Dreaded Lactating breast... Nursing moms should try their best to be discreet. But geeez people... Its a breast. It's got an important job to do, Moms don't need your hangups making child rearing any harder than it already is.
I've got more to rant about, but I doubt anyone is listening anymore.. this is a bit long winded.. and long winded blog posts piss me off too, so I better just say..
thanks for listening to whatever you were able to bear. This REALLY felt like BLOGGING!
I feel better now.
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