Brain Fog

I swear my family is trying to gaslight me.
Have you ever seen this suspenseful 1944 film? Ingrid Bergman is being driven crazy by her evil husband (charles Boyer). He tricks her into thinking that she is forgetting everything. ( btw.. It is amazing How much Ingrid Bergman looks like Debra Messing) I am either being 'gas-lighted' by my family or I am really going cuckoo.
Last week I had bought dried apricots and Medaglia D'Oro Caff' ( I love adding a few TBsP of espresso in with my regular ground coffee (and cinnamon) Anyway.. I go to eat an apricot and they are already opened. I ask my older son (the only other apricot lover) He claims he never opened it. I assume someone in the store tampered with them, No way will I eat them. Then yesterday I go to use the coffee and IT'S OPENED ALREADY TOO! Again, everyone claims they didn't open it. Considering it takes a can opener to open this item, I really doubt it was tampered with in the store. My husband ( Boyer in disguise) claims I am so forgetful that I opened it and forgot. (I could swear he even sounded like Boyer when he said this!) This is one example of them gas-lighting me. I know I am in perimenopause and have been more forgetful lately, but I KNOW I would remember taking out the electric can opener and opening that freaking coffee! At what point should we consider being forgetful serious enough to look into? I am going to be 49 this August, Can I really be experiencing the beginnings of Alzheimer's already? It is a terrifying thought. Years ago a wise friend told me. "You are like a Christmas tree with way too many ornaments on you. Take OFF some ornaments/ balls and give them to your children". I listened to her, and gave more of my chores to my boys. Lately, However, I am right back to my old habits of doing E V E R Y T H I N G! I feel so overwhelmed at times. My mind is full of all the things I need to accomplish. It also holds lists, doctors appt.'s to keep and make, Who needs what script called in, Birthdays, anniversarys,The families schedule, The names of all my clients, their spouses and kids and EVEN their grandkids names! For goodness sakes, No wonder I can't remember Apricots and coffee. Maybe I'm not being brainwashed or having Alzheimer's, maybe my little brains inbox is full and I need to torridly delete any junk that is taking up valuable space. I think I am going to invent a way to wear my pen and pad around my neck like people do with their glasses. This way, I can jot down Anything that pops in my head and free my brains branches of burdensome balls of bullshit. ( hey.. try to say that 3 times fast!)

the Date I make headlines

January 11, 2022- Lucy of Lulus Petals receives first successful Brain transplant.


Tonight my son asked me to make him chicken pot stickers for dinner.- I make these often and don't need to read the directions on the back of the package. 5 minutes later... They were black as night and I realized why the were called 'stickers'. I said to him.. I don't know what went wrong, I made them the same way I usually do.... THEN I remembered I forgot to add the 1/2 cup of water to the pan which helps 'steam' them instead of burn them.

Today I sit down to write a Sunday Scribblings Post- The prompt is date... Hmm..." I know I will write about my first date with Peter." As I am almost done writing I think.... 'GEE this sounds more familiar than just a story I've told before'. Then I realize...' OH YEAH.. I've already blogged about this'. I delete the post based on that assumption.... Later on.... I hunt for the old post..... Ends up...I had only wrote about our first meeting not that first date. shit. Can't remember how I put it all into such sweet words.

This morning, instead of milk, I poured Passion fruit juice into my coffee. Finished showering, realized I had forgotten to hang a towel within reach. I also forgot to send my cousin a birthday card AND a credit card bill was due yesterday. (ca ching $35.00 late fee.) but the absolute clincher... making me THE future brain recipient..... I have misplaced baby pictures. Precious, VERY important pictures. I've hunted high and Low.... I have been feeling physically ill all week due to this dilemma. Even a new brain wouldn't help me remember where they are :(
It's only 6:30.... I wonder what else I will forget?