Thursday, September 06, 2007

back and forth

I haven't posted in a while. Not much visiting of blogs either. Life is feeling too crazy, too busy, too much. Where are the hours in a day going? This week my youngest went back to school. Last week my oldest moved back home. My middle son is working back to back between college and his job. My husband is back to being frustrated by our bubbly hot tub.
(Look what happens when you listen to the "pros" or should I say scumballs at Leslies pool store)

I wish I was back on my Aug. Vacation, my lazy back against my lounge chair, my nosed pressed into my book.( I am really enjoying Khaled Hosseini's new book, "A thousand splendid suns". Have you read his first novel "The Kite runner"? If not, trust me get over to your library or book store and sit back and get ready for one of the most beautiful stories ever written.)
Anyway, I don't know why I am feeling so overwhelmed and a bit depressed. Considering what life has dished out through the years, things are really going well right now. I keep trying to focus on all the positives, all the happiness. Thank god, there are many to focus on.
When I think back through the years, I realize the beginning of each school year has always made me blue.
Many feelings come into play. School signifies the end of summer and its ease and carelessness, its beautiful sunny days. It signifies that the long winter and its confinement is on its way. It means we go back to the routine of getting up early ( 6 am) and conking out earlier. The weeks fly by even faster. I always miss my son. The holidays which bring more cleaning, shopping and preparing are creeping up. Geeez, If you were feeling good when you started reading this, I apologize, 'cause you must be feeling pretty shitty right about now.
I think I need to get back to my exercise routine. Those endorphins could be really useful right now. I also, need to get back to eating right. I haven't been counting points, calories or how many cookies I consume for lunch. Yesterday, lunch consisted of 5 dunkin munchkins, 2 giant oatmeal cookies, a spoonful of peanut butter and a cup of tea. Dinner was 3 slices of pizza. Gee, if we really ARE what we eat, no wonder I feel like crap. It is so hard to get back into the habit of eating healthy, but NEXT WEEK I plan on giving it my best shot.
(You can't start dieting on a thursday after all, I think that may be an actual deadly sin)


ann said...

OMG - that picture!! missed you on Tuesday - I gained. gah!

wishing you a less sudsy day!

Tammy Brierly said...

I was laughing so hard at your hot tub but I quickly sobered up at the mention of "holidays." Nooooo say it isn't true! lol

The end of summer funk will lift to the beauty and routine of fall. Hang in there baby! :)

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Giggles said...

Girlfriend what's up with the hot tub? it growing a life? I had a hot tub for ten years and it NEVER ....I say NEVER went berserk like that one! I think you need an exorcist!!! Christmas….PLEAASSSEEE don’t remind me….I am just recovering from two wedding and funeral!! I’d say you need “Calgon take me away moment” except I am afraid you might take me literally by jumping in that tub. I think you need roto rooter or something…You have a slight nightmare on your hands. However I do love bubbles more than balls with scummy hair floating around!!!

Deirdre said...

Breathe, breathe. It'll be fine. Once you get that tub figured out it'll be the best thing you've ever bought. Don't give up on it.

I'm not surprised at the cookies for lunch - it's comfort food time. You absolutely must not start a diet on the weekend. Monday is good enough.

~Michelle~ said...

Oh no your hot tub is a bubble tub, but not in a good way...eeek!

For me, Labor Day Weekend has always felt like the last official weekend of Summer too.

I can feel Fall in air already, soon the leaves will be changing...

Our grocery store already has their Halloween display and candy out! Sheesh!

Anonymous said...

Oh Lucy, that bubbling tub of your's! I don't want YOUR bubbles to burst, just your hot tub's!!

As for points, I couldn't bring myself to count for weeks and weeks. Am finally BACK, tho', and none to soon. Also am BACK exercising daily and that's feels really good. May we both be BACK doing all the healthy things we need to...however those big oatmeal cookies sound pretty excellent right about NOW!!! Occasionally, we all need a cookie break, after all.

P.S. I know I've not written a proper e-mail in awhile...have had AL-trouble. Let's just say I'm now walking him outside daily on a leash...or should I say he's walking me?! Will write soon...

daisies said...

oh honey ... am so sorry you are feeling this way (((((lucy)))))

i always find this time of year invigorating, a time for new beginnings, a crisp newness ~ am sending you some of those happy vibes :) xoxox